Monday, September 1

Goodbye/Hello

So tomorrow is it - the first day of school (!!!).
Up until today, I'd felt indifferent about returning to work. But all this anxiety and restlessness has crept up on me since I woke up this morning. I'm not ready but I'm so ready.
Labor Day weekend was full of all the spontaneity and love affairs and scandal that I should've gotten out of the way back in July.
Let's just say these three days have been delicious.
But not without consequence. My head hurts, my nerves are frazzled, my heart is still achy. I love to do things that will never meet the standards I set for myself. I love people that love me back in confusing ways. It's love - it's all love and it's real and that's enough to get me through the next day, but it doesn't always console me.
Anyway, I'm a teacher again. I don't know how I'm gonna fall back into that game, I don't know if I remember all the rules. But give it a month, I'll be playing to win by then.

4 comments:

pomegranate queen said...
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pomegranate queen said...

"Labor Day weekend was full of all the spontaneity and love affairs and scandal that I should've gotten out of the way back in July."

umm, i think we had the same kind of weekend!!!

i wish you well for the coming year girl. the school system doesn't always realize what gems teachers like you are. but the students do. and that's all that matters.

much love

Ashley said...

Bianca,
I am soooo happy to have found your blog. Geez, we're so disconnected ( i haven't heard your voice in a while) yet connected (I was smitten by your comment on Afrobella and that's how I found your link)...Sistagurl, keep sharing your light. It's golden.

love you,
Ashley

ahnkabee said...

thanks ladies!

sending love & light back to you